But the problem is, I fear I have the zeal of the newly converted. I really struggle with it, but I’m all in regardless. I want to talk incessantly about the joy of living with less and when I’m not talking about it, I want to get rid of more stuff. (I likewise am afraid I'll turn into an irritable and judgy misanthrope.)
What I don’t want is to be peddling guilt, for myself or others. Guilt over how much stuff we have, how many clothes, how much fabric, and so forth. I overuse the term (hey, I grew up in a Catholic household — guilt was currency, among other more positive things, like strength and self-sacrifice and love).
I also had the zeal of the newly converted to sewing when I started this blog and going through my blog roll regularly is something I still love. But there’s a change occurring in me — I used to relish the world inside my closet and now I'm seeking a wardrobe to equip me for the world outside of it.
For starters, I am going to stop using the word “guilt” or “guilty” and I want y’all to know that I’m not trying to make you feel guilty for your worldly belongings. I think this is a deeply personal journey and there’s no magical number of stuff we should or shouldn’t have.
In fact, for me this really isn’t about stuff. Grappling with my stuff is just a way to grapple with who I was when I acquired these objects—am I still that person? Are those still my aspirations? Does this still suit or serve me?
|What I Want More of: Laughter and Movement.|
See? It’s not the stuff. It’s all the emotional and psychological attachments to the stuff. It’s about how I feel with the stuff.
So when I say I want to live with less, that means I want less:
- Confusion and indecision
- Reminders of who I once wanted to be and didn’t become
- Objects that carry bad juju
- Time cleaning
- Things that will likely not be used in the next year
- Clarity and confidence
- Things that fill me with inspiration and wonder
You’ll have your own ways through and I’d love to hear about them. I think once I comb my home and feel like the objects I own are a reflection of where I’m at, I’ll settle down on this hyper-decluttering stuff. I’m in the process of shedding old skins and the stuff is just the evidence, but thank you for bearing with me on this journey.
In more fun news: Dresses on the horizon! And knits! (Guilt-free :)